After my ADHD Diagnosis: Taking my Power Back
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It’s not easy to navigate this ADHD stuff. I still have a long way to go, but I have lived more of my life on my terms since my diagnosis, than I ever have prior to it. It’s not even like I’ve had a particularly awful go at life so far (although it’s not always been easy), but it has never really felt like my life.
I’m not sure how I can best describe it, but it’s the difference between hoping that I’m doing the right thing or the acceptable thing because there was always someone else’s approval to get, or someone else I had to ‘be like. But now where, I’m actively choosing things for my life based on what matters to me. I’m a participant in my life rather than just looking to see what everyone else is doing and hoping I get it right. I feel more calm than I’ve ever felt because I’m slowly believing that it really is up to me.
All of it.
Not only the shit I have to work through (and trust me, there is still loads more to write about the shit I have to work through...), and the choices I need to make to keep going forward, but also the successes that I’ve had and will continue to accumulate too.
It’s not all good every day. I back slide a bit. I forget a bit. I doubt myself and the old stories creep in a little more than I hope for still, but the more that I learn about myself and what matters to me, the closer I get to a life that’s finally mine.